Month: December 2006

  • Intersections

     

    One of the fun parts of a wedding is that it provides an intersection for many disparate relationships.  There are not many times in one’s life when so many different avenues gather and meet at one event.  It is the locus of relationships familial and friendly, local and long-distant, old and not so old.  And this is true transgenerationally.

    It would be fun if there were more time to introduce strangers who have much in common.  Just a few:

        •  the pastor with my older brother who have both taught Logic classes at Classical Christian schools

        •  my niece who has spent time in Zambia with my  friend who grew up in  Zimbabwe

        •  my nephew starting fire school with my friend who is an experienced Hot Shot

        •  a dear friend who walked through the deep waters of cancer & my siblings who faithfully prayed for her

    I want the people I love to meet the other people I love. 

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    Which two friends would you love to introduce to one another? 
     
  • Christmas

    Promise made,
    Promise kept.
    The world saved,
    Abraham rejoiced!

    Word spoken,
    Word enfleshed.
    Yahweh with us,
    God justified!

    A poem by my dear husband. 

    We had some awkward white space in our Christmas letter. 

    He suggested we fill it with a definition of Christmas. 

    Better yet he sat down and wrote this! 

  • The Shape of Grief

     
    It is a singular truth that the shape of grief is more circular than linear.

    After sorrow has settled into your soul, it loops off for a while until it reconnects itself for reasons both random and predictable.  Predictably, there are times when the calendar is not a friend.  Significant days are given over to grieving until, one year, you find yourself sighing instead of crying.

    Random outbursts of grief can accompany a smell, a song, a smile, a photo, a familiar gesture, or some momento that revives a dormant memory.  The most perplexing experience is when sorrows, like sea-billows, roll right over you for no reason at all.  

    I have learned that grief relative to my mom’s death touches down during major life transitions.  (She died almost 40 years ago when I was 10.)  The life transition taking place is the impending  marriage of my second son.  Recently I awoke in tears, disoriented and disheveled.   I lay in bed and wondered why I felt so sad. The reason was simple: I missed  my mom. 

    I yearn for one moment with my mom on the glorious day of my son’s wedding.  I long to stand shoulder to shoulder with her, my arm linked with hers, our hands clasped together, as we watch “our boy” make his marriage vows.

    A Jewish proverb says
    that you are training your grandchildren
    when you are training your children.

    In that sense, my mom had a part in raising this child of mine, this son whom I thought of as my “sandpaper” child. Of course, I was his “sandpaper” mom.  Friction racked up frequent flyer miles in the flights of words that traveled between us.  At one point it took faith to look forward to a future relationship between us which would be characterized by friendship.

    At some undefined period, four or five years ago, the Spirit of God leaned down and blew off the grit, the grime, the crumbs — all the residue from years of sandpaper rubbing.  He licked His finger, as it were, and polished the surfaces.  He gave us repentance, for we both needed it.  To our surprise there was a smoothness of affection, an ease between us, a fellowship that grew as he became more independent.

    On Carson’s wedding day we will rejoice in the love between husband and wife; we will give thanks to the Giver of all good gifts; we will praise God for a son and a (new) daughter who both love the Lord.  At some point I will whisper a personal prayer of thanksgiving for this son of mine, for the reconciliation between us, for the growing love and friendship we share.

    My new daughter-in-law has thought of a wonderful way to give thanks for the heritage they have received.  She is setting up a table at the reception with six framed photos: pictures of the parents of the bride and groom on their wedding day, and wedding photos of all four sets of grandparents.  In an age of rugged individuality, it is refreshing to see the respect and honor given to parents and grandparents.

    The Apostle’s Creed says:  I believe in the resurrection of the body; and the life everlasting.

    I do believe there will be a day, one fine day, when my mom, my son and I will embrace, squeeze each other and throw our heads back and laugh the kind of laughter that begins down deep and emerges in a glorious melody. Sorrow won’t exist, even as a distant memory.  We will beckon others to join us: the beautiful grandma my son has grown up with, the wife of his youth, my husband, the grandfather I never knew, my son’s grandchildren, and their children’s children.  Together we will dance and sing and celebrate the greatness of God.

    O give thanks unto the Lord, for He is good,
    and His covenant faithfulness endures forever.

         
  • Magister Dilectus (Beloved Teacher)

    Janie asked me to write a post about this Latin teacher whom I refer to so often. I solicited essays from two friends who also studied Latin.  Bonnie at Btolly and Brenda at Tanabu Girl are writing today about our beloved Mr. F. (We always called him Mister even though he was a Ph.D.) Together we have a trifecta tribute!

    When we decided to learn Latin, we were desperate for help.  After a year of groping on our own towards one handhold of understanding I started praying and making phone calls.  I randomly asked people over 50 if they knew Latin.  “Well, not really; I took it in high school but don’t remember a thing,”  was the general response.  One phone call followed another as we tracked the scent of a Latin teacher. 

    Eventually I was led to a professor at our local university and she was intrigued with the idea, but didn’t imagine where she would find time.  The next words out of her mouth changed our lives.  “You need to call Dr. F.  He is a retired classics professor who recently moved here with his wife.”  As luck would have it (heh heh) my husband had been contracted to do some work in their home.  My husband told me to wait in calling Dr. F. until he’d done a little background check of his own.  He came home one day and exclaimed, “Do you know how many languages this guy knows?  And he knows Biblical Greek!”  But more than anything, he was impressed with Mr. F’s attitude.  He was not pompous, arrogant, or weird – quite the opposite.

    There are moments in your life that are indelibly imprinted on your brain.  I remember odd details about making the “cold call” to Dr. F.  For privacy and peace I was in our garage shivering and staring out the window of the garage door and contemplating the spider webs above the header.  After he answered the phone I explained who I was and that I represented a group of about 25, mostly kids and some parents, who would like to learn Latin; would he be willing to teach us?  His first response was, “Do you know what you are getting yourself into?  It’s not quite the same as learning Spanish.”  To which I rejoined that we would be willing to give it a try if he would be willing to take us on.

    So began six years of the best teaching I have ever received.  We met one night a week for two hours so our progress was necessarily slow.  I think we went back to the beginning of Wheelock’s four or five times to shore up our faulty foundation.  Here was a man who had taught the best and brightest grad students, a shining star in the world of classics, drilling young teens on the rudiments of Latin patiently, carefully, without a hint of condescension.   I showed him my nephew’s Latin book; as he looked at the author’s name on the title page he exclaimed, “Oh my, yes! I had this fellow for a student.”

    So we learned Latin.  We learned the idiom (at times he corrected the Wheelock answer to make it more idiomatically correct); we learned grammar; we declined nouns and conjugated verbs.  He told us that we were taught femina because it’s a first declension noun; however, mulier is the more common word in Latin for woman. Beyond that we learned the stories behind the sentences which we translated.  Ah, the stories! Mr. F has an encyclopedic memory and could connect words and sentences to stories from classical antiquity, medieval lore, literary episodes and current events. My boys soaked up the story of the battle of Marathon as told by the beloved Mr. F.  Wheelock’s Latin was just a springboard for teaching.  His examples to illustrate a concept came from the wide world of his reading and study.  I’ll never, no never, forget when he showed us the ethical dative and quoted Jane Austen using it. Who knew you could find the ethical dative in Jane Austen?

    The Latin class became a culture class: we listened to Carmina Burana and other pieces of classical music.  He would bring a painting out and give us a lesson in art appreciation as he explained elements of the art.  He read us poems, excerpts from literature, a column from the Wall Street Journal.  We read through some Latin psalms, early church hymns, Latin poems.  A Homerian scholar, he quoted us Dido’s story in the Greek and explained it to us.  He showed us humor in unexpected places. Mr. F. was several times a guest lecturer in my co-op literature classes. 

    The F’s love to name inanimate objects.  Their car was Abishag: a comfort in their old age.  They lived on a lovely piece of land and enjoyed cultivating and husbanding the property.  Mentally they divided it into the twelve tribes of Israel; Mr. F would tell his wife, “I’ll be working on Asher this morning.”  I can’t remember half of the great names they had but they were clever and fun.  Soon he will retire a second time and they will move back east.  The house they have purchased is grander than any they have previously lived in.  Their name for it? Pemberly!

    At some point the class shifted from Mr. F’s house to our house.  Magister Dilectus and his wife joined us for dinner before class began.  Although we came from different perspectives theologically and perhaps philosophically, we enjoyed sweet times of communion around our table.  We now regard each other as life-long friends.  When I wish to give myself a special treat, a phone call visit with these dear friends is the thing.   

    One of our first students went on to a well-respected liberal arts college (and is now a medical doctor).  When one of his professors asked Eric how he came to know Latin as a home schooler he mentioned Mr. F’s name.  His professor’s eyes bugged out and he said, “How did you get time with him?”  Eric replied that Mr. F. had retired and lived in his home town.  Thus began guest lectures at this college and eventually an invitation to return to teaching.  And our beloved Latin teacher and his equally beloved wife (a scholar in her own right) moved away to a new stage in their lives. 

    By the end of our class we were down to three students; we had completed 36 of the 40 chapters of Wheelock’s.  But we learned a wealth of information, and had been infected with a desire to learn, to ask questions, to seek wisdom, to love truth, beauty and goodness. 

    I may or may not pursue further formal studies when my stint as MagistraMater (teacher/mom) is completed. This one thing I know with knowledge deep in my bones: my Latin class with Mr. F. will be my Golden Age of learning.  Multiple times daily I look at a word and see the Latin behind it.  I feel like I’ve been given a secret code or a special set of glasses that makes the bright colors pop out.   My world has been expanded far beyond my expectations. 

    How does one express her gratitude for such a gift?

                                                                                            

           

            Beloved Teacher,

            Nothing is better than a life of greatest diligence.                                                                       

  • Fine Art Friday



    Jessie Wilcox Smith
  • Off Schedule, Perfect Timing

    Officially, we are behind in school.  Wedding preparations and other life events have crowded our schedule.  But! In the glorious timing of our behindness we get to read Athanasius’s On the Incarnation during Advent.  How awesome (a word I very seldom use) is that? 

    Athanasius is a great Trinitarian hero.  I get tingly and throat-lumpy whenever I sing or hear this verse in O Come All Ye Faithful:

    God of God, Light of Light;
    Lo, he abhors not the Virgin’s womb:
    Very God, begotten, not created;

    I usually whisper a quick prayer, “Thank you, Lord, for Athanasius.”  If not for him, we would not sing that verse.

    Short version of a great story:  Athanasius Contra Mundum (Athanasius against the world) is a well known phrase from early church history.  A controversy boiled over in the fourth century.  A man named Arian had persuaded most of the bishops that Christ was just a man.  Athanasius strove for the doctrine of the deity of Christ. Someone said to the Great A. “Athanasius, the whole world is against you.”  His reply was, “Then Athanasius is against the world.”

    A bonus is the Introduction by C.S. Lewis.  Can I tempt you with some Lewis quotes?

    There is a strange idea abroad that in every subject the ancient books should be read only by the professionals, and that the amateur should content himself with the modern books.
    ~     ~     ~

    It is a good rule, after reading a new book, never to allow yourself another new one till you have read an old one in between.  If that is too much for you, you should at least read one old one to every three new ones.

    ~     ~     ~

    The only palliative [for chronological blindness] is to keep the clean sea breeze of the centuries blowing through our minds, and this can be done only by reading old books.

    So what do you think of those quotes?  Do you agree or disagree?  Are you like me, who agrees in theory, but has not put it into practice?

    We’re reading Athanasius – yessssssss!

  • Pax Vobiscum


    Friend, you have come to this church,
    leave it not without a prayer.
    No man entering a house
    ignores him who dwells in it.
    This is the House of God and He is here.

    Pray then to Him Who loves you
    and bids you welcome
    and awaits your greeting.

    Give thanks for those who in past ages
    built this place to His glory
    and for those who,
    dying that we might live,
    have preserved for us our heritage.

    Praise God for His gifts of beauty
    in painting and architecture,
    handicraft and music.

    Ask that we who now live
    may build the spiritual fabric of the nation
    in Truth, Beauty and Goodness
    and that as we draw near to the One Father
    through our Lord Jesus Christ
    we may draw nearer to one another
    in perfect brotherhood.

    The Lord preserve thy going out
    and thy coming in.

    Note: This is what comes from cleaning your desk.  Two years ago, my husband and I were out driving with my brother and his wife when we came upon this country church.  Yes, the one in that microscopic photo above.  It was unlocked and we went in to explore. There was an illumined  manuscript  framed in the foyer with this message. The colored words  were ornately decorated.  It was a  beam of beauty in a glorious day. No author was given. I grabbed the only paper available (a deposit receipt) and copied the charge.  These words were kept safely in a drawer that always gets the most cluttered.  They have sifted towards the bottom of the “someday” pile and resurfaced today. Pax Vobiscum, dear reader.


  • Songs of Childhood

        
                            Charles Curran, Songs of Childhood

    My beloved Latin teacher introduced me to Charles Curran several years ago.  I can relate to the little girl leaning on the piano.  She’s getting a happy earful, don’t you think?  Likewise, I used to drape myself over the side of an upright piano and listen to my piano mentor, Audrey St. Marie.  Whenever she played and I was in the room I just had to be as close to the piano as possible.  But I had to be able to see her hands on the keys. 

    Songs are as potent as smells in evoking childhood memories.  There have been times when my sister was visiting and we broke into a camp song we hadn’t sung in twenty years much to my husband’s astonishment.  At my in-law’s 50th anniversary party, just for fun, my husband and his sister sang “Haggalina Baggalina,” a song they sang repeatedly as children on cross-country car trips.

    What songs do you remember from your childhood?